we had our hopes up that daddy would be home in time for Christmas! After all, he had his tickets and itinerary in his hand! We thought we were pretty safe at planning on it. He was scheduled to arrive at 1145 am on Christmas Eve! i was ECSTATIC!! I couldn't believe it, it was WAy too good to be true! Just as this entire deployment has been, we have had many ups and downs, tears, laughter, dissapointments, sleepless nights, happy days, trials, blessings, miracles and most of all love! Once again, another upset...and why im as shocked as i am, i don't know. after all it is the military and they are not the most reliable source! I dream of the day that i will see him walk down that terminal and hug his daughter! It makes my heart ache knowing that he his ALL alone stuck in an airport for the holidays! Why oh why, after all thats happened, why does this have to just top it off! Apparently there is something i needed to learn! And I think I know exactly what it is!! (I hope) Christmas is not about presents, trees, lights, santa, reindeer, and food! Its about our Savior, being together as a family and having love and peace in our hearts! I know this sounds all too crazy, but i really think I needed to learn this lesson! i was so bummed that luke wouldn't be here on christmas eve, that we couldn't wake up on Christmas day and have all our presents opened etc...But someone told me, Christmas is a season, not a day! Whatever day daddy gets here, will be Christmas for me! It is just a day, and the presents can wait! It doesn't matter that I am sitting here in my house with no one but my kids, cuz at least i have them! Luke has nothing but his fellow soldiers who are all dying to make it home to be with their families as well! This deployment has taught me sooo much about life, about what is important and especially taught me how much i really do love my husband! He is an amazing person and I couldn't ask for anyone stronger! He has been my support through all this! On those many days when i didn't think I was going to make it through this, He was right there, even though he was clear across the world, and helped me feel better! He never once showed me how hard it was for him, he is not a complainer. He does what he has to and you never hear about it! I think i complained about something to him every day! I can't think of one thing he complained about, and he was in alot worse of a situation than I was! I am so greatful that i was given the strength to survive this! i will be honest and say I NEVER want to do it again, but I learned so much from it! It was a trial that I will never forget and it seems that the trials won't be over till he is in my arms! (then we will have a whole new different set :) ) We endured alot of things together even though we were so far apart! When I look back at the past 7 months and think of all the memories we had together even though we were so far apart, I can't help buy smile, laugh and cry all at the same time! We shared our daughters 2nd birthday, 4th of july, horse accidents, 24th of july, parades, derbies, summer full of fun, boat trips, camping trips, car wreck, new car, screaming kids, laughing kids, and probly the most amazing thing of 2009 was the birth of our son!! We also shared his 1st halloween, 1st walk, 1st trip, 1st smile, 1st laugh, 1st Thanksgiving, and hopefully will be together for his 1st Christmas.. I videoed everything :) We had countless number of phone calls and skype time! i think there was more days than not that I cried cuz I missed him so much, but it never failed, I had a sweet two yr old, ALWAYS know what to say to cheer me up. She has been a bigger support through this than probly anyone has, and she will never know it! I feel bad I wasn't a better mommy! My family was amazing to help me out for pretty much these past 7 months! There is no way I could have done it without them! No way in the world! They will never know how much they helped me! I could jump out of my skin with excitment when I think that this deployment is almost over...but still so far away! I am so excited for him to meet his son, hold Britlyn, and of course, hold me! It will truly be a Christmas we will never ever forget, even though its a been a rough 7 months and I never ever want to do this again...I am truly greatful for all that i have learned and for the people that have helped me so much! I am forever in debted to my heavenly father for helping me through this, i couldn't have done it without him, my family, luke's family, britlyn, kolten, carly & cody, my home ward for taking care of the yard, and all the others who have helped in any way! I am forever greatful and I will never forget the kind acts that went out to me and my family!! Somehow we will find a way to return the favors! We love you all so much :) and Merry Christmas!!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Dear Father in Heaven...
This is the time of year that every one is busily running around, shopping like crazy, getting good deals, buying lots of food, stuffing themselves full, anxiously awaiting family arrivals, wrapping presents, seeing santa, caroling, partying, and so on...I have found my self a little out of the christmas spirit this year! I have been SOOO excited to see Luke again and get him off that plane, that Christmas has barely crossed my mind! Kids are writing and seeing santa, asking for all the things their little hearts desire for christmas! Instead of writing santa, since this one is way out of his league, I figured i better take it up a notch!! The only man that can help me here is my Father in Heaven! Please please, this is all I want!
we had our hopes up that daddy would be home in time for Christmas! After all, he had his tickets and itinerary in his hand! We thought we were pretty safe at planning on it. He was scheduled to arrive at 1145 am on Christmas Eve! i was ECSTATIC!! I couldn't believe it, it was WAy too good to be true! Just as this entire deployment has been, we have had many ups and downs, tears, laughter, dissapointments, sleepless nights, happy days, trials, blessings, miracles and most of all love! Once again, another upset...and why im as shocked as i am, i don't know. after all it is the military and they are not the most reliable source! I dream of the day that i will see him walk down that terminal and hug his daughter! It makes my heart ache knowing that he his ALL alone stuck in an airport for the holidays! Why oh why, after all thats happened, why does this have to just top it off! Apparently there is something i needed to learn! And I think I know exactly what it is!! (I hope) Christmas is not about presents, trees, lights, santa, reindeer, and food! Its about our Savior, being together as a family and having love and peace in our hearts! I know this sounds all too crazy, but i really think I needed to learn this lesson! i was so bummed that luke wouldn't be here on christmas eve, that we couldn't wake up on Christmas day and have all our presents opened etc...But someone told me, Christmas is a season, not a day! Whatever day daddy gets here, will be Christmas for me! It is just a day, and the presents can wait! It doesn't matter that I am sitting here in my house with no one but my kids, cuz at least i have them! Luke has nothing but his fellow soldiers who are all dying to make it home to be with their families as well! This deployment has taught me sooo much about life, about what is important and especially taught me how much i really do love my husband! He is an amazing person and I couldn't ask for anyone stronger! He has been my support through all this! On those many days when i didn't think I was going to make it through this, He was right there, even though he was clear across the world, and helped me feel better! He never once showed me how hard it was for him, he is not a complainer. He does what he has to and you never hear about it! I think i complained about something to him every day! I can't think of one thing he complained about, and he was in alot worse of a situation than I was! I am so greatful that i was given the strength to survive this! i will be honest and say I NEVER want to do it again, but I learned so much from it! It was a trial that I will never forget and it seems that the trials won't be over till he is in my arms! (then we will have a whole new different set :) ) We endured alot of things together even though we were so far apart! When I look back at the past 7 months and think of all the memories we had together even though we were so far apart, I can't help buy smile, laugh and cry all at the same time! We shared our daughters 2nd birthday, 4th of july, horse accidents, 24th of july, parades, derbies, summer full of fun, boat trips, camping trips, car wreck, new car, screaming kids, laughing kids, and probly the most amazing thing of 2009 was the birth of our son!! We also shared his 1st halloween, 1st walk, 1st trip, 1st smile, 1st laugh, 1st Thanksgiving, and hopefully will be together for his 1st Christmas.. I videoed everything :) We had countless number of phone calls and skype time! i think there was more days than not that I cried cuz I missed him so much, but it never failed, I had a sweet two yr old, ALWAYS know what to say to cheer me up. She has been a bigger support through this than probly anyone has, and she will never know it! I feel bad I wasn't a better mommy! My family was amazing to help me out for pretty much these past 7 months! There is no way I could have done it without them! No way in the world! They will never know how much they helped me! I could jump out of my skin with excitment when I think that this deployment is almost over...but still so far away! I am so excited for him to meet his son, hold Britlyn, and of course, hold me! It will truly be a Christmas we will never ever forget, even though its a been a rough 7 months and I never ever want to do this again...I am truly greatful for all that i have learned and for the people that have helped me so much! I am forever in debted to my heavenly father for helping me through this, i couldn't have done it without him, my family, luke's family, britlyn, kolten, carly & cody, my home ward for taking care of the yard, and all the others who have helped in any way! I am forever greatful and I will never forget the kind acts that went out to me and my family!! Somehow we will find a way to return the favors! We love you all so much :) and Merry Christmas!!
we had our hopes up that daddy would be home in time for Christmas! After all, he had his tickets and itinerary in his hand! We thought we were pretty safe at planning on it. He was scheduled to arrive at 1145 am on Christmas Eve! i was ECSTATIC!! I couldn't believe it, it was WAy too good to be true! Just as this entire deployment has been, we have had many ups and downs, tears, laughter, dissapointments, sleepless nights, happy days, trials, blessings, miracles and most of all love! Once again, another upset...and why im as shocked as i am, i don't know. after all it is the military and they are not the most reliable source! I dream of the day that i will see him walk down that terminal and hug his daughter! It makes my heart ache knowing that he his ALL alone stuck in an airport for the holidays! Why oh why, after all thats happened, why does this have to just top it off! Apparently there is something i needed to learn! And I think I know exactly what it is!! (I hope) Christmas is not about presents, trees, lights, santa, reindeer, and food! Its about our Savior, being together as a family and having love and peace in our hearts! I know this sounds all too crazy, but i really think I needed to learn this lesson! i was so bummed that luke wouldn't be here on christmas eve, that we couldn't wake up on Christmas day and have all our presents opened etc...But someone told me, Christmas is a season, not a day! Whatever day daddy gets here, will be Christmas for me! It is just a day, and the presents can wait! It doesn't matter that I am sitting here in my house with no one but my kids, cuz at least i have them! Luke has nothing but his fellow soldiers who are all dying to make it home to be with their families as well! This deployment has taught me sooo much about life, about what is important and especially taught me how much i really do love my husband! He is an amazing person and I couldn't ask for anyone stronger! He has been my support through all this! On those many days when i didn't think I was going to make it through this, He was right there, even though he was clear across the world, and helped me feel better! He never once showed me how hard it was for him, he is not a complainer. He does what he has to and you never hear about it! I think i complained about something to him every day! I can't think of one thing he complained about, and he was in alot worse of a situation than I was! I am so greatful that i was given the strength to survive this! i will be honest and say I NEVER want to do it again, but I learned so much from it! It was a trial that I will never forget and it seems that the trials won't be over till he is in my arms! (then we will have a whole new different set :) ) We endured alot of things together even though we were so far apart! When I look back at the past 7 months and think of all the memories we had together even though we were so far apart, I can't help buy smile, laugh and cry all at the same time! We shared our daughters 2nd birthday, 4th of july, horse accidents, 24th of july, parades, derbies, summer full of fun, boat trips, camping trips, car wreck, new car, screaming kids, laughing kids, and probly the most amazing thing of 2009 was the birth of our son!! We also shared his 1st halloween, 1st walk, 1st trip, 1st smile, 1st laugh, 1st Thanksgiving, and hopefully will be together for his 1st Christmas.. I videoed everything :) We had countless number of phone calls and skype time! i think there was more days than not that I cried cuz I missed him so much, but it never failed, I had a sweet two yr old, ALWAYS know what to say to cheer me up. She has been a bigger support through this than probly anyone has, and she will never know it! I feel bad I wasn't a better mommy! My family was amazing to help me out for pretty much these past 7 months! There is no way I could have done it without them! No way in the world! They will never know how much they helped me! I could jump out of my skin with excitment when I think that this deployment is almost over...but still so far away! I am so excited for him to meet his son, hold Britlyn, and of course, hold me! It will truly be a Christmas we will never ever forget, even though its a been a rough 7 months and I never ever want to do this again...I am truly greatful for all that i have learned and for the people that have helped me so much! I am forever in debted to my heavenly father for helping me through this, i couldn't have done it without him, my family, luke's family, britlyn, kolten, carly & cody, my home ward for taking care of the yard, and all the others who have helped in any way! I am forever greatful and I will never forget the kind acts that went out to me and my family!! Somehow we will find a way to return the favors! We love you all so much :) and Merry Christmas!!
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Oh Shianne... I really liked what you said about Christmas being a season not a day.. I totally agree cuz whenever your husband does get home it will feel like the best Christmas/day of your life.. you are amazing and I love reading your posts. you are a strength to me.. I hope you have a great Christmas and thanks for sharing your testimony..
Thanks for sharing Shianne. It's so true what you said. It's not all about the presents it's just being together as a family. Thanks for reminding me that I need to just be grateful for everything I have right here. I hope he will make it back soon. I'm sure it will be a great Christmas season for you.
Shianne, I just love you :)
Phew...Let me get a tissue so I can see what I'm typing :)
You guys are both amazing. I have been close by, but I still can't imagine what you both have gone through. Luke and you are SO strong to have gone through this! I truly look up to both of you and it makes me want to be better. I am SO happy that things worked out and that he was able to be home on Christmas day. Let's all pray you never have to endure this trial again!
P.S. I STILL can't believe how skinny Luke is! lol!
This was super sweet to read, Shi. I can't wait to see the pics of your reunion with Luke. I hope it is everything you were hoping it to be. :)
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